I just got off the phone with one of my dearest friends.
I grew up with him, went to high school with him. Literally played in a dog house with him (we had a dog house we turned into a fort). We collected Wacky Packages together, went to high school dances together then in our early 20's we lost each other.
Two weeks ago, my sister found him on the internet. She called him. I emailed him. Tonight we talked. He is gay. He came out in his late 30's. We lived in San Francisco at the same time, for over a decade, and never ran into each other. We worked less than 2 blocks from each other.
I know I have wrote before of feeling the need to connect with my past. He is a huge part of my past. I almost told him what is going on with me, almost, but I didn't. I think I most likely will, but not right now.
He is in the process of moving to Europe.
What can I say? My past is finding me again, and it feels good.
You know, when you lose someone, it can be almost impossible to find them again. People come, people go. Some people are supposed to be there, and are like eternal family.
I am so happy I'm getting older I think. It's seems as if my life path is becoming clearer all he time, even if there are some bumps in the road, at least I can see the road.
Peace,
OC
How utterly gratifying, OC. I would like to do more of the same...but at the same time, I am happy to have left Southern Oregon behind when I left at 18. If I ever went back, I would move north.
ReplyDeleteReunions are nice-my 20th will be up in a couple of years. Once in a while I contact someone, or they do me, and it is very nice. I need to make peace with someone who was special to me in high school, and I know that will never happen--it was unfortunately a case of "never judge one's children by the actions of her parents" and my mother acted out of line, and I don't think I have ever forgiven her for it--the fact she denies everything does not help. I still dream about it...I need to make it right but am not sure how. However, that would help me so much.
I have lost so many close friends--so many have died for so many different reasons--that it is hard to reconnect with those we knew in common as it makes me so incredibly sad to remember. I know, I ought to toughen up, but I have always been extremely emotional and that is just who I am.
I am thrilled for you and your new re-connection! It sounded like an amazing conversation, yes, and one that was extremely validating for you as well.
Be well, OC. Have a great Thursday!
That's wonderful for you to re-connect with you friend. The older you get you really will see that life goes around in a circle.
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ReplyDeleteWhat on earth did I ever do to deserve to have you read my blog? You always leave the most wonderufl comments, and I think finding those special people in your life is certainly worth the effort. You are a kindred spirit, I can tell.
Rubye J....I am beginning to see that.
Shucks, OC--how did I deserve to "stumble" upon you? All things happen for a reason.
ReplyDeleteYou rock. I need to let your Red Friday post gel a bit. Wow.
Be well, OC. Have a GREAT Friday!