I'm sitting here on my couch looking out my bay window at the vast Montana Sky, and I wonder where I'm headed.
It's cold and rainy looking outside. This is the sort of weather that really makes me feel my juices. I've been playing on "Photobooth" with my son all morning, and we took some really crazy pictures.
Back to the Zen Garden. I changed everything on my computer that I could to match the Zen Garden wallpaper I just put on my desktop. I feel the need to get things in order, which is astounding considering just how messy my house is right now. I've given myself 20 minutes to write and then it's off the computer and on to house cleaning. I know that will make me feel better than anything else I can do for my self will today.
Today is the sort of day that smells of home made soup and strong coffee.
I don't know why I always thing of weather with smells attached to it, but I do. Sunny weather smells of woodsmoke, sunscreen, BBQ's and beer. Cold weather smacks of homemade chicken posole, cookies baking and really good smelling body washes in long hot showers.
I am in the process of getting my house in order. I have stuff stashed everywhere, and I can't fit stuff into closets. I have clothes hanging in my closet right now that I know I'll never wear, but every time I go to donate them, I think, "what if". Last time I managed to pair down all but a few old things, except I couldn't , no matter how hard I tried, get rid of my "skinny" Levi's, all 10 pairs of them that are folded on my closet shelf taunting me of my body before kids.
Cleaning is always good for my soul. I can't do it right now, since I need to wait for the kidlet to go to sleep, or he will be up like a shot. I've finally begun decorating my living room. It has a "cabin" feel to it, some lodge pole shelves, lamps, and rugs. I plan to paint next year. I'm also going to have some custom lodge pole coffee tables and end tables made by the guy that made my bedroom set.
Oh, and for some fun entertainment, if you remember "Lueronda" is looking for stuff in my freecycle group. I almost laughed myself silly this morning when I realized it was her posting, but who else could be posting this add. Besides I know all about her family because she told me in Walmart.
Maybe I'm supposed to help this woman out, because I'm about to get rid of 3/4 of the stuff she was asking for.
" I just moved out of a house I have been sharing for 6 years and we
usually bought stuff together and very few items seperatly and even
thoughs items I was told not to take them. I was lucky to get half my
stuff and my 3yr old daughters stuff. I NEED and would like to have the
following items. Pots & pans, bakeware, dishes, glasses, mixer,any
kitchen items would be helpful.
Bunk Beds, Bedding for eveyone,Dressers, sewing machine, card table,
desk, shelves of any kind and loose shelves to put up high on wall. A
trike or a big wheel, power wheels for a three year old. Little girl
clothes in 4 toddler and she still allso wears 3 toddler and size 11-12
shoes. Then we allso need a T.V. and a entertainment center. Hoses,
shovels, rake, gardening supplies.
I am having to start over and it is very hard to do on a fixed incom.
THANKS FOR LOOKING"
usually bought stuff together and very few items seperatly and even
thoughs items I was told not to take them. I was lucky to get half my
stuff and my 3yr old daughters stuff. I NEED and would like to have the
following items. Pots & pans, bakeware, dishes, glasses, mixer,any
kitchen items would be helpful.
Bunk Beds, Bedding for eveyone,Dressers, sewing machine, card table,
desk, shelves of any kind and loose shelves to put up high on wall. A
trike or a big wheel, power wheels for a three year old. Little girl
clothes in 4 toddler and she still allso wears 3 toddler and size 11-12
shoes. Then we allso need a T.V. and a entertainment center. Hoses,
shovels, rake, gardening supplies.
I am having to start over and it is very hard to do on a fixed incom.
THANKS FOR LOOKING"
I'm seriously feeling guilty now for the post I wrote about her before. Somehow I feel like I'm supposed to help her now.
Peace,
OC
Peace,
OC
Then help her you should...that doesn't make your time spent in her check-out lane less annoying! I'm sure she'll really appreciate the donation. Just steer clear of her lane in the future!
ReplyDeleteI hate cleaning. It amazes me how when I moved into my house when Liv was a toddler, I felt like a marble in a showbox, so much room! Now, I can barely fit the towels in the linen closet.
ReplyDeleteHow did this happen?
Tag. You're it. http://www.sterkworks.com/six-quirky-things-meme/435/
ReplyDeleteThey say smells bring back and trigger memories more than any of our other senses. So there you go on the linkage.
ReplyDeleteCleaning - ick, why the worst.
I am working the dark side of the Virgo sign for sure.
janet
Thanks for the comment love - if you need any points of reference let me know - I got plenty
ReplyDeleteWow, OC.
ReplyDeleteYour posts always leave me with so much to think on. I usually have to let your words sink in a bit before responding.
Don't allow yourself to feel guilty. You were, for some reason, supposed to write that before so that you would pay more attention to this post for help on her part. You were frustrated and merely let that out. No matter for whom or for what reason, the right thing to do is to help those in need and you know that.
Cleaning, for me, is cathartic--although it is hard to get myself motivated to get good cleanings going if it is not miserable outside. After someone is sick in the house, I love the litany of the changing of the sheets, the opening of the windows and the freshening of everything--out with those germs!
You are amazing. You are a wonderful mother. Being true to yourself is going to resonate deeper with your children than living a lie and consequently being unhappy. ...and look at me, living the lie. So much easier said than done. But my daughter has asked me point blank if I love my father and I have told her that, although he is a good person and is a good father to them, that no I do not love him. I cannot lie to my children and they deserve to know the truth, even if not fully able to understand the truth now.
Zen garden. Your post title brought back to mind immediately the image in Ryoanji Temple in Kyoto the rock garden upon which I have been fortunate enough to be able to sit and simply meditate. The rocks--the large islands, the small waves, perfect patterns, perfect harmony, neither would be quite the same without the other. Very visual. Then walk through the temple and, on the back a little area forgotten by the tourists, so I detoured there. A small waterfall--but with only a trickle of water. Looks so delicate, sounds so small, smells so fresh--how I longed to taste that water but I restrained, employing the samurai bushido code of restraint, and simply took in that which I was supposed to.
To this day that memory calms me, a memory now 13 years old.
Thank you for reminding me, OC. Be well.
Ah...yes, I forgot the most important point of all: I hope everyone is feeling much better in your home very soon!
ReplyDeleteSummer smells like McDonald's Chicken Nuggets with Sweet and Sour sauce to me.
ReplyDeleteHelp her. You'll be helping both of you and know that you did something good for someone who needs it. She probably talks so much in her checkout lane because she's so lonely in her life.
It would probably make you feel good too.
Sound like Lueronda could use a bit of help. Don't feel guilty about the post - it was written in good fun and hey, it was an amusing experience (at least for those of us who read it).
ReplyDeleteIt's a rainy day here too. And I should be doing what you're doing instead of saving the cleaning for the weekend.