"The Talk"

He called me, while I was driving to therapy last night.

He asked me, "Why aren't you wearing your wedding rings?"

I answered simply, "I don't feel very married anymore."

He said to me, "So you would rather tell your shrink, and your computer than me?"

I said, "Something like that."

He said "What am I doing wrong? I come home, I take care of the kids, I'm home when you get home, what am I doing wrong?"

So, I went home last night, and we talked, really talked for the first time in so long. I'm sad today. I told him I didn't think that we could repair our marriage, but that he needed to repair himself for the kids. He told me he didn't want a divorce. I told him I had said nothing about a divorce. We both cried.

I'm not sure where I am right now. I'm really not. I can't go back, but I don't know what direction forward is going to take. We both talked about making sure the kids were all right. I told him I was not going to "make" him do anything, but that anything I asked should be considered by him for his sake and the kids sake.

We are going to talk more tonight. I had to take the rest of the week off. I needed to get my head straight. I'm sure he does too, but he needs to do that in his own way, not my way.

Sadness is all around me now. My kids were picking up on it last night, so I'm going home tonight, and hopefully we'll have dinner and a peaceful evening.

More later,

Peace,

OC