BearsMountain: Question #3

December 14, 2008

Question #3

Question #3 comes from Mamma Llama.

What is the greatest thing you can receive this Christmas?

This sounds a little corny, but I think I have already received the greatest gifts I will ever receive. When I was a kid, all I wanted to do was be a mom. I always thought I'd be one of the people to have children early. It just didn't work out for me that way. I lost a baby to a miscarriage in my 20's with my first husband. I went through the grief of that. I spent years, watching my friends have kids, with me being unable to have them, first because I was unable to get pregnant again, then because I divorced and was single. I had a few scares then, always secretly hoping I would get pregnant, as I was in my 30's and starting to feel the clock ticking.

I took more negative pregnancy tests than I care to admit to taking, each one breaking my heart just a bit more. By the time I met hubby, I had all but given up on having kids. I resigned myself to it, and I think I was becoming "OK" with it, but at the same time, we agreed we both wanted kids, and though we wouldn't go to extreme measures to have them, we would do nothing to prevent them either. This went on for over 2 years, each year with me becoming even more resigned to not having children, and trying to be OK with this in my head.

Then one September morning, I started feeling sick to my stomach right before a big camping trip with friends to Yosemite. Hubby said, maybe you are "pregnant", and I sent him down to the store to buy a test, just to be sure before the big weekend of partying that lay ahead. I was sure it would be negative, as they were ALWAYS negative, but this time, damn....I got two lines. Sent hubby back down to the store, and 6 positive tests later, we were jumping up and down because we were so happy. He even started calling family at 6AM to tell them. Then we stopped on our way out of town for the camping trip and I had an actual blood draw done. The nurse called me the next day, in Yosemite, while I was watching Half Dome from our camp site and said I was "officially" pregnant. I'm not sure I've ever been as thrilled since.

So there you have it. I may have done it the hard way, but my kids are the greatest gifts I have or ever will receive. I am thankful every day that my life took the turn that turned me into a mother.

Peace,

OC

1 comment:

Martini Cartwheels12/14/2008 3:12 PM
That's an awesome story OC. It was meant to be - you as a Mom with two beautiful kids!
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81 Things About Me

1. I'm blond.
2. I'm the oldest child.
3. I got my drivers license on my 16th birthday.
4. My favorite color is red.
5. I've never been skiing.
6. I never want to go skiing.
7. I went to catholic high school for one year.
8. My cat is 18 years old.
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10. My kitchen is always clean, even when the rest of my house is a mess.
11. I spent years wearing acrylic fingernails.
12. I can sing the songs to every episode of the Backyardigans.
13. I can sing every song of the wiggles.
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18. I'm a really good cook.
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20. I have a fire engine red Kitchen Aide mixer that I will never divorce.
21. I'm a Stevie Nick's fanatic.
22. I lived by the beach for 20 years.
23. I have a lot of Barry Manilow on my iPod.
24. I have a lot of Bon Jovi on my iPod.
25. I got my ears pierced for the 1st time when I was 10.
26. I have two kids.
27. I'm a terrible student.
28. I'm terribly nosy, and will google you.
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30. My favorite TV show is Criminal Minds.
31. I love Sex and the City.
32. I'm trying to figure out who will actually go see SATC with me a the theater.
33. I've never owned a new car.
34. I'll probably never own a new car.
35. My pets all live to be extremely old.
36. I have a red car.
37. I nursed my son for 2 1/2 years.
38. I was only able to nurse my daughter for 4 months.
39. I still have boxes of albums and no turntable to play them on.
40. 50 is getting closer than I'm comfortable with.
41. I own a Ron Popiel Showtime Chicken Roaster.
42. I use aforementioned roaster at least once a week.
43. I used to be a chain smoker.
44. I quit smoking cold turkey. I've never had another ciggarette.
45. I'm a coffee addict.
46. I have really good hair.
47. I have really bad legs.
48. I love down comforters.
49. I love flannels sheets, but not with down comforters.
50. I used to be a fairly good potter.
51. I've had a computer since they were on DOS.
52. This is my 2nd Mac computer.
53. I'll never own a PC computer again.
54. My favorite junk food is Dorritos dipped in sour cream.
55. My favorite drinks are Tom and Jerry's.
56. I can't stand any kind of light colored beer.
57. I've seen a bear.
58. I used to be very shy when I was a child.
59. I'd kill for a Noah's Bagel.
60. I'm a night owl.
61. I babble in the car, I love to talk.
62. I never expected people to actually read my blog.
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65. I work hard to control my temper.
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75. I have no tatoo's.
76. I really don't like chocolate that much.
77. I love gummi bears.
78. White gummi bears are my favorite.
79. I shave my legs every day.
80. I love Disco music.
81. I can drive a stick shift.