Weekend Update

So, I spent the night Friday in the hotel by myself. It was nice, and lonesome at the same time.

I went home about 9:30am and picked up the kids and then we went to Walmart. (where else would I go?)

I bought both kids new Nintendo DS's on Saturday, I had intended on only buying Small Son his, which he has been working for, but they had this pink one and Little Miss fell for it. So I bought it. Bad bad...but it made me happy to get them, especially for Small Son as he had been wanting it and working for it for so long.

I took them back to the hotel with each of them holding their new games with pride. When we got in the room and I started unboxing all the loot, I was moved to tears when Small Son told Sissy to "say thank you to mommy". He is such a sweet boy.

They had a little time to play with them before our friends arrived, with their swimsuits and DS'sin tow. My friend had said she would watch the kids for me when I went to look at the townhouse. So I took off, hit the store quickly and then went and met the property manager in front of the place.

When I walked in, I knew it was the place. It was the perfect size, everything looked new and nice, it had Berber carpet in the living room, and a light color of pergo flooring in the kitchen and dining room. All the bedrooms were big, the place was painted very nicely, and it had a fenced in back yard for the kids to play in. It also had a huge huge two car garage, with tons of storage, a bedroom big enough for my bedroom set, a huge garden tub in the master bath.

I met the woman living there, and she said she would try to leave the bracket for the TV on the wall, and if not her son could put a new one up for me. She was going through a divorce as well, and the bracket was her "hubby's", but she told me she would tell him I had offered to buy it.

The back yard had a small patio big enough for a small patio table, and a BBQ...the lawn was the nicest roll around in grass. I took it on the spot, and gave her a check. She is going to call my ref's tomorrow, this time I'm not including my boss in that bunch.

The rest of the day was spent with my friend and her kids, and our kids in the pool. We let them completely wear themselves out, and there were moments I was so happy because my kids were so happy it was unclear about what I should do.

After my friends left, I took the kids back to the pool (inside) and we watched it rain while going back and forth between the hot tub and the pool. The kids were having so much fun, and I just let them wear themselves out again. I had no place to go, and there was no reason not to let them swim and play to their hearts content. I sat in the hot tub for a bit, watching them, and wondering how I could be this happy on the edge of a divorce.

Depending on how hubby acts this week, I may do it again next weekend as well. My mental health needs a little TLC right now, besides the kids begged me to let them go back again. I have to admit, that pool was like bathwater, and the most pleasant pool we had been to in ages.

Today we came home, brought hubby breakfast from Micky D's and the kids gave him the fathers day present and cards I had got. He looked like someone dropped an iron on his foot when he saw I had got him a new digi camera. He realized instantly why I had gotten it for him.

He is getting served tomorrow. Thankfully he already knows what is in the papers including how I changed the custody arrangements around. I keep expecting him to fight with me, I know I would if he was proposing what I am to him, but we will see. I think he will sign.

The rest of the day was spent in a relative calm around here, the longer we were here, the less grumpy he got, which made me feel guilty. I know he is hurting, but he won't or can't help himself. I offered up counseling again, he won't go. He says there is nothing wrong with him. That what he does is no different than my Prozac.....bullshit.

Anyway, we will see what tomorrow holds.

I'm sitting on my bed, listening to my beautiful wind chime, and the wind blow, it's sleep time at last.

Peace,

OC