Saturday Again....

I'm going to the old house in a bit, with a bunch of happy purple and lime green bins to fill up with the stuff that is left there. I'm sure it's going to make me a bit sad. When I'm IN the house, I'm OK...I'm not missing it, etc...but the minute I go out on the deck...Wham!!! It's like a hammer hit me in the gut from the missing it, from the lost dreams, from the happiness I had when I moved in there, pregnant and full of hope for the future. But as they say, that was a long time ago. It's time to let go, to let it go. To find a new family for the house, new kids to play in the yard, on the swing set. Someone who might love the tasteful blue counter tops that I hated.

Meanwhile, in my new home, and it is feeling very much like a home. I've met some of the neighbors, everyone is really friendly so far. My kids have made fast friends with the girls next door and hope for a play date soon. I'm going to invite the family over for a BBQ next weekend. Hubby and I, (I can't in good conscience call him Dufus right now) had a lovely time last night. He moved into his new house and was very tired. I invited him over, grabbed some steaks from the market and he came over and we BBQ'ed. We sat out on my porch, in my new rockers and talked. We laughed, and the kids played. We were both relaxed and had a good dinner. We talked about exchanging house and car keys out of necessity, as I've come home twice this week and he and the kids were sitting outside waiting for me. It makes me so happy to be getting along with him, and then be able to send him home. It makes me so happy to still be able to be a little bit of a family unit. It makes me happy to hear how excited he is about his new house. Happy is happening here right now.

The kids are with him, and I've spent part of the morning cleaning and getting laundry started. I didn't clean up too much last night, I didn't feel like it.

I'm going to get what I need to get done and then come home and have an evening to myself. Make a nice dinner and who knows what?

I'm considering trying to get a small air conditioner for upstairs, which is miserably hot in the daytime. I did order thermal drapes for both bedrooms in hopes of keeping out the hot afternoon sun, so we will see, but the air-conditioners are on sale all over town right now, and August is when we are going to need them. We only need them for about 6 weeks, but we need them bad during that time.

I'm considering starting a new blog, and putting this one to rest. It's been a long haul, but I'm moving in a different direction now, and think the time may be right to put Bearsmountain down for a rest, and start a new blog, for a new life.....I think I will keep Bearsmountain as a link though, It's been so helpful for me for the last two years, and I know there are a ton of us Late in Lifers, as my new friend Rebecca would say out there who can and will benefit from my journey. I'm still considering, and pondering, we will see I suppose where the wind takes me.

Peace,

OC